Friday, May 24, 2013

Morgan: Tribute

My heart is so full. Bursting full. The kind of full that makes life, at this moment, seem so, so meaningful and almost sacred. Life is those things at all times but sometimes your heart just tries to take it all in.

I just want to tell my oldest child how much I love him. So here goes.

Dear Morgan,
      I got to rock you to sleep just a little bit ago. That doesn't seem like a big deal. But at almost 2 and a half, it is. I am overcome with love for you. You are such a special boy. I was thinking about how much your daddy and I expect of you, and how much you learn every day. I was reminded as I was holding you what a short time you've been on Earth. Two years! That's just not much. You are still so much a baby, but you are even more a little boy now. That doesn't seem to make sense but you are. To think that God entrusted me with you is both empowering and humbling. It's my calling in life to teach you, to nurture you, and love you. To help you be confident and kind. What a task. I feel like the learning opportunities are just endless at this time in your life. It's exhausting for both of us but so worth it. But I hope learning opportunities never stop and that I can be there for as many of them as possible. You are only on the brink of boyhood but I see the beginnings of truly amazing man.

I've loved you since you were smaller than a speck and I'll love you forever.

Love, your mama

How can so much happen in two years?


Thursday, May 2, 2013

the fetus.

This is just going to be a quick little prego update. Maybe boring, but I have some great news! Read on.

I had an appointment on Monday. Josh had to work the Saturday before so he didn't have to go in on Monday, which was the best! It was a whole family outing. Love it. We got to hear the little heartbeat on the doppler thingy, which was great since I was only 10 weeks! Strong little one.
Everything went just fine and dandy.
The news I was anxious to hear about was my antigen levels. Last pregnancy I had an antigen in my blood that was a potential threat to the baby if the levels got high- which they never did, thank goodness. I had to get my blood drawn every month which was kind of traumatizing for me. I'm THE biggest wuss about needles.
I had read that it often gets a little worse with each pregnancy so I was nervous about it. I had my blood drawn to test for it at my last appointment. We asked the doctor what the results were aaaaanddddd....
it's all gone!! No antigens at all detected. Happy day!

So that was the greatest news.

This little one is going to be special, you guys. Josh and I feel very strongly about that.

As for how I'm feeling... I'm doing aight. Booty tired, but what momma isn't? I'm not too nauseas which is great. Usually only when I get hungry. The main thing I have going on is horrible indigestion  My tummy is angry at me so much of the time! Even when I'm eating good stuff. I don't get it. I guess I'll keep popping the tums. I don't even know if they help.

So that's that!

P.S. These past few days have been ca-razy. I'm potting training Morgan and it's definitely an adventure. Not ready to write about the craziness but hopefully I will be soon!

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

just pictures.

I promise I won't take a million pics and post them EVERY time we go to the park this summer. 
Also, don't expect me to keep that promise. 
What am I supposed to do with the cutest kiddies on Earth?